Mediocrity and Effort

Make every effort, Peter says.
The Spirit of God is in us to change and control us, but we also have to make every effort. God draws near to us when we draw near to him.
How much time is spent just twiddling my thumbs waiting for God to change me, meanwhile I do nothing for him. I don't pray fervently, I don't read with a burning desire to know him, I don't assume he will use every minute of every day, I don't believe him for much of anything or grab a hold of his promises with all I have banking on his word being true, even true for me.
Its clear from the bible that God didn't save me to be mediocre and accomplish little, yet I accomplish little. He wants me to decrease so he can increase. He wants Tyler to die so Christ can live through me.
He has joined me with him in death on the cross, that much is done.
But I spend much time holding onto the last bastions of myself instead of just purposing to lose the war, and surrender every encampment that waves my own flag.